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"My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Exodus 33:14
I absolutely love my job. I feel beyond fortunate that my job doesn't feel like work on most days.
However, this week has felt extra hectic. It's not even the end of the teaching week and already I've taught over 15 classes to 5-13 year olds. On top of that, life carries on. And life with a pre schooler who has a mom dealing with infertility can be emotionally draining.
I find if I keep myself busy and over scheduled, my mind forgets I have health issues and unmet dreams. If every moment of my day is accounted for then my brain doesn't have a moment to stop and remember the pain of losing multiple pregnancies.
Then weeks like this week turn up. Weeks where my normal life load feels overwhelming and unbearable.
I frequently go back to old blog posts in moments like this. I find that rereading my past reflections is helpful. It's a good reminder that:
1. I've been in a similar chaotic place before
2. I've made it out said chaotic place in tact and with a genuine smile
Big Sur, 2016
It was a good reminder that sometimes it's easy to get caught up in the hustle of life, until life seems like a semi truck aiming straight for you. That's God's way of telling us to slow down. Slow down and lean into Him, relinquish control to Him an relish in the JOY that only HE can provide.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”